One thing I’m going to have to get used to if I’m not looking for a relationship is rejection. The people you hook up with won’t be around forever. I think this may be the hook that’s kept me in relationships longer than I should have been. It’s very difficult to let go.
I have mentioned Jill, who was originally nothing more than a sexual conquest. Things changed as I started talking to Jill and realized she was very much what I looked for in a woman. She was attractive (Actually, Hot is more accurate), She has a great personality… She was fun to be with, She had her innocent/childish side and her mature sides in even balance. She seemed to have quite a bit in common with me as well plus was sexually uninhibited (though don’t get me wrong… She was not a slut. We never slept together… She was just very open about her sexuality)
We were not committed and she was seeing another guy.She got to the point where she needed to decide on what path she wanted to take. I don’t know anything about her relationship with the “other” guy but she chose him. I wish her the best. I hope she’s happy while at the same time I hope things fail and she considers getting to know me better.
By this post you can tell I was starting to fall for her… I can only be hopefull and move on. Girls like her will come my way in the future. Though it sucks now, I’m probably better off…
Maybe at the next party, I’ll get the two girls to actually hook up with eachother as well as me 🙂
One can only dream!