Just got back from the Poison concert! Great show…
Tracey had gotten passes to go backstage (yes I’m EXTREMELY jealous) with a friend of hers, and of course, she couldn’t get me a pass, so my only option was to go and hang out alone the whole show while she was backstage….
Fortunately for me, my boss at Island 94.3, one of the radio stations I work for was able to hook me up. I got 2 passes and went with my friend Matt…….
The show was great, but I can’t help feel a sense of disappointment, not with Poison, but with Tracey.
I don’t know if I am just jealous of Tracey for going backstage, something I’ve wanted to do my whole life, or if I feel neglected by going to the concert, with her spending most of the time backstage (which I shouldn’t feel cuz I only went cuz she was and I knew then that she was going to be backstage with her friend)…. I know I feel a bit left out because after talking to her on the phone now, she told me that her and her friend were going to go see the show in NJ next weekend without even a mention of inviting me….. I always of saw the 80’s rock bands as something we had in common, granted, something she was way more into that me, but something we could share but I kind of feel more like I’m sticking myself in her business or just trying to associate myself with something she likes and wants to do on her own, when I just want to be able to share this experience with someone I love.
The reason I haven’t gone to many concerts is because I didn’t have someone like this or even a group of people like this anymore. I always love going to clubs/concerts but when the people that were closest to me stopped going, so did I. I always went when I had a girlfriend or a close group of friends who were into it but rarely enjoy these things alone. Maybe because I’m shy socally and find it difficult to speak with or get along with general fans of the venue I’m attending…..
I guess I kind of feel cheated that I don’t have someone to share most of the things I love most with.
Just my thoughts tonight….